Lapis Azul

So it’s my co worker’s birthday today.

Now, this might seem like a great thing, but to me, it’s really hard. Over the past few months our friendship/relationship went from sharing-everything-pretty-much-BFFs to her being super malicious and hurtful towards me. In all of this, I’m trying desperately to be the bigger person - despite being hurt over and over again.

So some people in the office are putting together something for her birthday and is asking everyone to send in a memory or something that we like about her.

I’ve had an email draft up almost all day and each time I go to write something, I can’t finish because I know it’s not true.

“She’s always got your back…” Well, no…

“She’s a support system..” In fact, quite the opposite in recent months…

I know I need to send something in, but I really don’t know what. My favorite memories of her were when she was a different person towards me. And I don’t know what to do with that, partially because I haven’t reconciled the fact that we are not friends anymore and the hurt hasn’t gone away.

Well, I guess I have a few more hours til my deadline is up. Wish me luck.

tylerknott:

Typewriter Series #9 by Tyler Knott Gregson

I care not of the miles,
the borders, or the oceans
that may come between us.
I will sail on the seas
of your happiness,
and I will travel
across the perfect geography
of your skin.
I will study the constellations
of your freckles
and fill my life
with the passport stamps
from every corner
of your body.
I will explore you
and I swear on the breath
you will steal
that not a soul on earth
will find more
to love.

-Tyler Knott Gregson-

Reblogged from Tyler Knott

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Then you get a little bit older and you start falling in love, and people start falling in love with you. The second time you’ll experience that look is with your first real love. You’ll be lying in bed together and in the morning he will open his eyes a second before you open yours, and you will catch him with an expression on his face that tells you he just found a pirate’s bounty. That’s the point where you really know, you really, really know, that you’ll be able to tell everything you need about a man’s feelings from the way he looks at you. It’s when you’ll stop demanding frivolous gestures and “I love you,” because on the rare occasion you notice him looking at you like that, you know it’s all you’ll ever need.

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That Look Boys Give Girls But Pretend They Don’t « Thought Catalog (via prima-volta)

When I told you I liked the way you look at me sometimes when I catch you, this is what I meant. This is exactly what I meant.

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If you let me, here’s what I’ll do. I’ll take care of you.

— Take Care: Rhianna and Drake